I ain't good, just purely evil

Why must every human bother to play the role of a good guy and get respected? Or this value just lives inside every homo sapiens? Whether they doing it to get something or just they don't want to get their ass backstab in the future, we don't know. But something that i can be sure of is - impersonating the role of a good samaritan doesn't necessary means that you will end up doing something good. Before i start, let me propose the question of "Those real humans out there do all this good passionate or helping acts for what? Is nothing really what they seek?"

Everyone and everybody knows, every little things we do now will mean every biggie things in the future. Like the logic of radius, if we miss calculate by 1° radius - just imagine how big the gap after a long distance. Imagine a plane flying off direction just by 1°, after 5 or 7 hours..can that plane still reach its destination? Then coming back to my question, how many people out there really did this in-humanoid acts consciously or vice-versa? I use the word in-humanoid because real humans are never good, they are HUMANS - something which were created to do real bad stuffs and mistakes, not to do something extraordinary or unusual. I can say that every good thing i did, i did really hope for the return of my good will. How many of YOU don't? If you say you don't, well..seriously.. you ain't human!! blinded by egoism and not able to distinguish what's right and wrong!! See this : -

Good Example No.1
How many good friends you have? Whether you did it in a serious or jest manner, have you ever said to your friend - Hey,how can you treat me like this? Each time you need help or anything, i will be there for you but why you can't be here for me this time? *Ahem Ahem* This clearly shows that this friend certainly do hope for something good in return. Well, anyone can say that friend might be joking but this sentence which questions friendship came into his mind, how can he use their friendship for a mere matter? If there is this guy, he is even worse than those who hope for good retribution -.-

Next, going deeper into my topic discussion, good deed = good outcome? Hohoho!! Before i proceed,let me scold those assholes out there.. if you know that this "good deed" will only harm people, why still bother to do it? why still bother continuing that "good deed"? just because you want to be labeled as good? just because you can't do anything apart from goodness? Cool! That's freaking hypocritical!!

Good Example No.2
You see that impoverished and miserable looking beggar at the roadside begging for money. That beggar has 2 hands and 2 legs, everything intact. With every good deed of giving that sucker money, it just makes that fucker lazier and the more that beggar thinks that he can earn a living with begging. Looking from the surface, it's soooooo magnanimous~~ but when we see the outcome, is it really good? and if that guy who gives the beggar the money knows bout the outcome, but that guy still gives.. is he or she a good samaritan? or just someone acting to be altruistic?

Let me deviate for a moment.. The capability of humans to have hopes and fears do bring more harm than good. I repeat!! more harm than good~ Actually, it is the gift from hopes and fears that is good which people repeatedly reject when it come to us. 1 good example - "The Gift of Fear" by Gavin De Becker, go read this book. Damn fucking useful!! Each time before we get into trouble or before trouble seeks us out, there's always this hint that comes to us way earlier before it happens. The problem is people always ignore it. When they ignore it, they act as if they accepted it. Human hypocrisy,can't blame them tho.. I'm like that,so..skip this shit.. wouldn't want to fire my own ass. That's 1 good example of hypocrisy -.-

Acting good doesn't help, sometimes we need to be critical and logical enough to play the bad guy!! which i always try to do but i failed..

Good Example No.3
Got this example from Gavin De Becker. How many rape cases happen because the woman was trying to be good? and how many rape cases happen because the woman was evil!!!? If this shop owner - a lady - about to close her shop around 9pm or 10pm. Then there is this guy who try to enter this shop upon noticing that she's about to close. This lady sense something weird - then you think that this lady should let that guy in or not? What if this guy really needs to buy something from your shop? What if this guy is up to something bad? Well, if i'm that lady.. i'm sure to shut down my shop and tell that guy to come next morning. Not so stupid to let him in as it is already so late. But guess, what happens to those lady who try to be good and let this guy in to "buy something"? Well,this is the furthest i can go bout this example. see my point?

Thank you for reading this far and also thank myself for inditing such post. lol~

educational flop

Yeah!! I don't know bout other subjects but maths definitely a FLOP!! get me? A GARGANTUAN FUCKING FLOP!! Yeah~ That's sound pretty cool!! Haha!!

Start off with the intro.. MATHS is a hellish and devilish subject which devils and monkeys worship as the sacred grail of corruption! Anyway,i got only 1+1 proof for now why maths is worshiped by devils and monkeys. Have you guys studied something annoying called "algebra"??

Ok..now look at this!! TADAA!!!

Obviously...from what we can see, GOD = DOG - WHAT THE FUCK IS MATHS TEACHING US? Thus,i bet you guys understand why only devils worship maths.. by the way,do you like or love or worship maths? if you do..oh shit!! shu shu~~ don't come near me!! lol~

Next.. look at this>>
Guess what's the answer?? usually,if we were given this question during exam.. i think none of us will be able to answer this "tricky" question cause of the hocus-pocus stuffs.. Ahem!! what happens when we apply algebra to solve this question?
WAH~~ when we use algebraic method,the answer is soooooo simple~~ 1 over n times sin x equivalent with SIX!! That's so cool!!

With all this shit..i hope those with intention of pursuing mathematical degree please stop and venture into something better. Thank you!! YEAH~~

party time =)

Exam's over!! If only the transition time between exam and getting the results could be forever..how nice~

WAKAKAKA!!! KISS MY ASS~~

penetrating the obscurity

We are suffering from an incurable disease named "Life". We are now living..and also dying at the same time. Trying to live life to its fullest but most of us fail in doing so. Partly because our expectation is too high or we are plain stupid..born to be a imbecile and slave..

Humans are failures..the only invention created to fail.. created to have such enigmatic mind which eventually leads them to be problematic hooligans and assholes.. created to have feelings,which make humans think that they are of higher class but they don't. Care and love for their youngs, jealousy to own, the perception of "survival of the fittest" see any similarity in animals? humans are created to have a better brain..but most of us misuse it,just give a thought bout - humans are better than animals in what sense? and compare the difference. I dare to say that we are almost the same as animals and beast. We share the same elements of feelings,thoughts and whatever shit that our brain can do..just that in every aspect,we are just a class higher than animals.. we are better in showing our love to our love ones, we are also better in crimes..we have cyber crime!! really high-tech~ use mouse click click..use keyboard press press.. pooof!! get 2 million dolars -.-

After living for almost 19 years - chasing the unknown~ guess i'm really seeking the real meaning of life. I still remember in biology - "Tujuan utama manusia hidup adalah untuk meneruskan zuriat" damn!! is it really it? if it really is..then i have spend my youth studying for nothing..might as well straight go reproduce..lol~ then..after all the loops and hoops,i realize that life is not bout reproduction,but something more abstract.. something i cant explain with words..just within my own deep thoughts.. well,that's 1 thing i learn and so far..it's proven useful.
"Failure is not because we failed but because we didn't try hard enough" keep this in mind. freaking useful and can really captivate cum motivate us when we falter in the obstacles in life..

Maybe this is the first time i ever write something like this.. oh satan!! what's becoming of me? by the way,my mum is awake,shit! need to off9.. let me end with..
"Believe what we see and hear, believe not what others see and hear"
*so..have you ever seen GOD?

exam sucks!! and it sucks hard~~

Taking a break amidst exam.. wondering how many or much subjects i gonna fail this time..or just how well will my results "coruscate"? lol~ haiz.. exam just make my school life fucking miserable.. can't wait to kiss my school goodbye =) another half a year to go before i get my ass out of 6 Atas Cendawan..yeah~ yewshiong..i'm sure you can survive all the tormenting "things" in your school. you won't succumb to those "lowly life" who just know how to induce excruciating pain to others.. especially being a nuisance to my ears when i listen to those "things" crapping and preaching in class.. i'm going insane~ yeah~

amusingly awesome!

1st episode of YewShiong's Believe It or Die =)

Today,i mean this morning..i had my MUET speaking test. Got up early at 6am and reached school around 645am. Then got myself quarantined in a room full of hopes and fears..aduh.. anyway,the speaking test was kinda fun! know why? my friends and i were supposed to be quarantined for the secrecy and confidentiality of the exam questions..but!! we got to know about the question way earlier in the quarantine room -.- rofl~~ what kind of shit quarantine is this?? well,to avoid certain consequences..i think i will term it as our excellent psychic method of prediction,i'm afraid if some of the dumb teachers from my school read this.

The fun part..as we all managed to predict the question,eventually we were discussing the points for the speaking exam in the quarantine room. That's where i find the quarantine room useful, apart from boredom and claustrophobia.hehe =)

When we got into the room,look at the question paper.. WOAH!! the prediction is correct!! after preparing for around 30 minutes( in the quarantine room ),we were given another 2 minutes inside the room to write down all our ideas in place to ease our burden when we speak. Damn,the scheme of MUET is sure generous..another 2 minutes for us. Thanks!! During task A ( the part where we speak solo elaborating the idea given to each candidate ), the four of us did it confidently calm.yeah~ then..sad to say,all hell went haywire during our task B..aiks.. It was something like this...

Candidate.A = Bla bla bla
Candidate.D = Bla Bla Bla
Candidate.C = Erm..i see that all of us have come to a single say. What do you guys think?

All the candidates nod in agreement that we should actually conclude our discussion.
Moments later,

Candidate.B = Since all of us have come to an agreement...

The invigilator interrupts.. Erm..you guys still have around 4 minutes plus..
Yeah~ that's when heaven and hell collides..all of us got stunned like monkeys slamming themselves into the tree when they take the wrong swing.

Eventually,we managed to pull ourselves through and put our discussion to an end during the last minute.. Ta Da!!! Finish~~

*Disclaimer = Unbelievable?? Don't believe it.

respect and gravitas

How do we define the word "respect"? Dictionary.com defines respect as esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability. Well,i don't really care much bout the definition. All i care bout today is "why do we respect someone?"

I'm not really sure on this subject but is respect something that we need to acquire or we are just born to be respected? In my opinion,respect is something that we need to gain and acquire throughout our life. It's not something that we simply give out of sympathy or "giving face" to that he or she. First of all,what's my point in writing this? i'm writing this to wake some guys up from their long dream and pull them out from the abyss.. those guys really deserves my sympathy..they think that they are my seniors or just because they are older,then i need to give them my respect.. oh crap! i'm purely giving way to their egoism and "give face" as they can't accept the fact that they don't have the gravitas and they are not worth respecting. Pathetic,they think i'm respecting them..lol!! anyway,just let them be..

In my own personal opinion,i only give respect to those who are worthy of it. Why go respecting some elderly hacks while they are doing acts which i define as unreasonable,despicable,hypocritical and can easily be term as atrocity. If we respect this kind of people who don't practice what they preach,then..soon before long,we are sure to be like them. So? prevention is better than cure.learn from their dumb mistakes,that's the only part which they are good for..our scape goats to see the effect of those despicable doings. Hereby i urge everyone to try to be respectable and not just gaining respect from seniority or some cheating methods..lol!! cheating methods..zzz..

Robert Frost once said.. "Try not to become a man of success but rather a man of value". Well,there is some connection between value and respect.. Anyway,this quote did really wake me from my long nap,kicks my ass out from the abysmal dream which leads nowhere. Last but no least, gain respect from your doings and deeds as this "respect" is worth a gold compare to the respect gained from "atrocious stuffs" which worth no less than shit.

*This is the important part. Don't think that you're a royal blood or someone who teaches or some parents or some elderly man makes you worth respecting. I give in to you because i respect myself as a sane being who lives with dignity and human morale.