any confession?

I got the inspiration out of nowhere and here goes nothing

The Confession

I have been waiting for the time to come
Hoping that you will turn up
After leaving my world with abrupt
Forsaking my timely chance to erupt

With patience i hope and confide
With faith i will treasure the chance to come
Obsessed and blinded with emotions
Time passes without me knowing

Still hoping and waiting for you
But to no avail, you are at somewhere else
I await you for faith you will appear
Then you passed my back and i didn't realize

Not succumbing to time and tide
I kept myself from anger and also - leaving
Casting the blame to me and myself
For all along, you didn't know i'm waiting

Neither storm nor hurricane could stop me
None will be the barrier of my hopes
That was what i thought..
Then it all changes - when the hope arrives

You appeared in front of me - like the first time
I wanted you to know everything but i can't
For fearing that it might drift us apart
Then you turned away and began to leave

Left speechless and flabbergasted
My world was beginning to crack
As my world being drawn into oblivion
I heard a very familiar voice saying..

"I knew it.. I knew it from the very beginning.. Sorry but i have to leave.."

I wanted to edit this poem due to certain factors but in the end, i think this original piece still seems better. Comments will be happily accepted even if you think this poem sucks.hehe. Thanks!

flop and flaw

Sad to say, the world that i'm living in is going on a path of destruction. Or just maybe just the place i'm living in.. Nothing is fair as long as humans is involved, this logic never went wrong and it will never go wrong. Believe it or not? Last week, i just got the result for my english test. Well, i suppose i just use the name "english test"

During the first exam... well, i got a b4 and it's freaking close to b5. Then, not satisfied with my results, i went and enroll myself in the exam again. The result of the 2nd time definitely didn't failed my expectation but after having deep thoughts bout it.. That result somehow disappoint me as i was wondering if this exam really shows someone's capability. First was closing in into b5, then the second time... my score went fucking near b6. This large fluctuation shows something. This "something" is either i did some fucking improvement or this exam is not that "good" erm..i don't really know hot to describe it.

Maybe i got shock and then overwhelmed with anger as some people got astronomical results or maybe this exam really sucked! Then, to soot myself.. i told myself..lady luck just struck on them. Subjected to luck, well.. their competency and capability is somehow increased -.- If you guys don't know what i'm talking, let me brief on it 1st. This exam that i'm talking about has 4 parts - listening, speaking, reading comprehension and writing. The total marks is 300 with 45, 45, 135 and 75 following the sequence from the last sentence. Imagine someone getting fucking high score in only listening and reading comprehension which consists of multiple choice question like 45/45 and 130/135. Then the nice part comes, scoring only 35/75 in writing -.- If things really turn out like this, that person still gets a b5 which states - good command of the language. Erm.. i would not want to say much more in this.haiz...

Well, no matter what i say.. the fact that those people did well in this exam can't be altered. Before i end, i really need to say this.. i don't know this is being sarcastic or magnanimous, i seriously think that you're worthy of that score =) Congratulations~

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Been a month since i last updated. Sad to say, got nothing to update but happy to say, i just updated my blog. At least, there is "nothing" to update -.- Anyway, the main purpose of this post is to say this -