everything's a mess...

Everything in my life suddenly seem so vague.. emptiness... solitude... as if being drawn into the abyss... but weird enough, i don't wish to believe in god to save me... i only wish for the existence of Lucifer to bring me further into the depths =)

serenity

After 3 weeks in manipal...I finally found a place that soothes the mind and alleviate the sorrow of everyday chaurasia (go google - anatomy by b.d.chaurasia and you will understand the misery). "End Point" is the name and i only manage to get myself there only after third week... I heard from the seniors bout it but didn't really got the opportunity to step my foot there. The nature here is still untainted and emits the green that elates the soul. Somehow, this is proven by the couples having some quality time over here, maybe behind the bushes too.i hope they won't taint the nature here.. lol~

All green..damn nice =)

Another shot.

Too focused on the camera..i'm the only guy who's so serious and tensed -.-
sorry for that..haha!

One of my crapping buddy, ginseng boy~

From another angle i guess, can't seem to stop appreciating the nature..
kudos to mother earth~

That ginseng boy took this picture..i guess i stand too far..zzz
Btw, beside me stands the future top student. distinction gonna-be! wakaka~

That's all.. I didn't manage to walk til the end cause of a dinner appointment. Anyway, 3 of us plan to go there again next weekend..only if we have the time and plus if the weather permits us to. For those not in India, you won't be able to enjoy this! haha!! At last i own something pleasant and that makes me feel better.. self-comforting >.<

life...

Sorry for the long hiatus. I wanted to keep my blog alive but i can't think of any post. Enjoy your life and be thankful while you're reading this post especially for those who are indulging in the sanctuary of home sweet home... Living in my place now is like a priceless once-in-a-lifetime experience which you only be able to live through it once. That's how i summarize my current situation in a euphemistic way =)

The journey...

The plane's engine don't look good -.-
look like my pinwheel toy during childhood..lol

This is the beautiful main building that i saw in the internet...
It's true! even the inside is quite grand!

But..on the other side hidden nicely from the main picture
Lies LIES that you can't imagine~ -.-||

My hostel room itself is a big joke...
Every puny thing is nicely made by cement! even my bed...
Btw, the mattress is negligible cause it look thick but feels thin -.-

Lucky there is a wooden plank embedded on the table
to ease my studies..haha! plus the "alloy-like" lean-able chair =)

My fucking cupboard..ops! sorry..
It's a cemented pigeon hole with a metal door -.-

That's all the pictures for the time being..haha! Well.., the moral of the story is...not to learn how to appreciate things..but don't come to India...especially not my hostel @_@

keeping myself company

Got myself in something big, as shitty as a war..

Easy to start

Hard to end

And impossible to forget

Guess what's that?

It starts with L =)

i hate doing decision when it's already decided

Everybody come come~ put your head in this ^ and don't worry if your head is too big, it will sure fit in nicely. If you don't know what the use of this thingy above, try it and you will know =) have fun~

human can rust?

I rather die instantly than being scourge into nothing in a perpetual motion. That's gonna be my quote of the month for july and august. Everybody's leaving..leaving me behind in the damned city of stones and chisels. I just cant leave yet, and when i do. I will be leaving for the darkest abyss guided by darkest shits. OMFG! Before that happens, i'm already partial or fully covered with oxide compounds. I wonder what kind of reaction will i get when i look into the mirror. Suprise or just.. Oh~ expected! and ways to prevent rust.. none of those in my chemistry book will work on me, what should i do??? galvanisation? magnesium plats?? somebody help me~~~~ wakaka!

tahi is shit

First there is shit.
Second there is also shit.
Third there are many shits!
Fourth all the shits are missing~

I just came back from KL after four days three nights of escape from home into happiness. Upon reaching home, it felt kinda odd and weird. The weirdest of all is i came back on my free will while i can stay longer.OMFS! The worst part is now in BP, there is no more monkeys around to swing with me. This is just so sad... Almost all of my species that evolved from monkeys ages ago went off into the world of corruption leaving me to join them in august..or maybe september. Apart from that, i'm gonna be stuck for another week traveling to meet some relatives from my monkey so-called primitive orang-utan ancestors. Once again, the preach - my body is there but my soul ain't there can be put to good use. I will need to endure this boring-ness and fuckingshit-ness for almost a week. May the shit be with me! Hopefully with all these sufferings, i can live to appreciate all the elation and joy that is about to come with the ancient monkey-ish fucked-up laughter~ MUahAhaHahA~

now i understand..

We never really understand til we undergo it. Now i understand.. We live to suffer and with this suffering, only we will be force to learn how to appreciate the little happiness we get in life. I thought i knew how bad this shit gonna take its toll on me, but it seems like.. the pain is so.. painful..zzzz.. maybe the only word to describe this misery is life. I can't seem to find another word synonym to this shit. Neither damn nor fuck works anymore.. I think this time.. I can really imagine - slamming my head real hard on the wall and the pain is nothing compared to the pain i'm taking in.. oh my wonderful life~ how nice~

words..

Words are just words... No matter how touching can it be, it just last for the moment and soon before long.. it's history.. those words will be in memory but the effect of those words won't be..

life goes on..

Life goes on.. and everything will not be the same. It just won't stop changing as we go on. Nothing will ever the same again like what happen a year ago. All i can do now is look back and learn from my mistakes. Live with all the regrets and don't make history repeats. The rule of life is... Everything will undergo change and the only thing that won't change is the fact that we must change. Cest la vie!