tahi is shit

First there is shit.
Second there is also shit.
Third there are many shits!
Fourth all the shits are missing~

I just came back from KL after four days three nights of escape from home into happiness. Upon reaching home, it felt kinda odd and weird. The weirdest of all is i came back on my free will while i can stay longer.OMFS! The worst part is now in BP, there is no more monkeys around to swing with me. This is just so sad... Almost all of my species that evolved from monkeys ages ago went off into the world of corruption leaving me to join them in august..or maybe september. Apart from that, i'm gonna be stuck for another week traveling to meet some relatives from my monkey so-called primitive orang-utan ancestors. Once again, the preach - my body is there but my soul ain't there can be put to good use. I will need to endure this boring-ness and fuckingshit-ness for almost a week. May the shit be with me! Hopefully with all these sufferings, i can live to appreciate all the elation and joy that is about to come with the ancient monkey-ish fucked-up laughter~ MUahAhaHahA~

now i understand..

We never really understand til we undergo it. Now i understand.. We live to suffer and with this suffering, only we will be force to learn how to appreciate the little happiness we get in life. I thought i knew how bad this shit gonna take its toll on me, but it seems like.. the pain is so.. painful..zzzz.. maybe the only word to describe this misery is life. I can't seem to find another word synonym to this shit. Neither damn nor fuck works anymore.. I think this time.. I can really imagine - slamming my head real hard on the wall and the pain is nothing compared to the pain i'm taking in.. oh my wonderful life~ how nice~

words..

Words are just words... No matter how touching can it be, it just last for the moment and soon before long.. it's history.. those words will be in memory but the effect of those words won't be..